Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Bookshelf

You will be judged by your bookshelves.
-Noriko Nakada

Mitch's tribute to Mom

When nobody wanted a 6 year boy from Korea, my mother's love gave me new roots, second chance at life.......I will never forget that as long as I'm alive. Until we meet again mom, know that I've always loved you. 

A Mother's Love -Jim Brickman


Thank you for watching over me
All of the sleepless nights you lay awake
Thank you for knowing when to hold me close
and when to let me go

Thank you for every stepping stone
And for the path that always leads me home
I thank you for the time you took
to see the heart inside of me

You gave me the roots to start this life
and then you gave me wings to fly
And I learned to dream
Because you believed in me
There's no power like it on this earth

No treasure equal to its worth
The gift of a mother's love
Thank you for every sunlit day
That filled the corners of my memory
Thank you for every selfless unsung deed
I know you did for me

Thank you for giving me the choice
To search my soul till I could find my voice
And I thank you for teaching me
To be strong enough to bend

You gave me the roots to start this life
and then you gave me wings to fly
And I learned to dream
Because you believed in me
There's no power like it on this earth

No treasure equal to its worth
The gift of a mother's love
I thank God for a mother's love


In memory of my mom who I loved matter what happened in the past. Thank you for adopting me and I forgive you mom. May she be remembered for what she gave to each one of us. 

Favorite Photos of Sue Nakada















Saturday, June 21, 2014

Mom Lived Life on Her Terms - Chet Nakada

I feel like this service should have been at St Francis in Bend or at a catholic church somewhere but times changed, she changed. The tables have turned a bit. I know she had a similar feeling 17 summers ago when my wife Holly and I were married in an outdoor ceremony in Hilo, Hawaii by a Buddhist priest. I could feel her unease at the rehearsal for the ceremony but she kept her opinion to herself. Cmon, this is my first born, an altar boy, went to St Francis elementary, all those children's masses, the holidays, Easters Christmases, but...she kept her opinion to herself.

Keeping her opinion to herself was tough for mom. Often you didn't have to ask it. She freely gave it freely. Almost always she was right. 

I noticed how hard she worked about keeping her opinion to herself with parenting. I know that was really hard for her. She really tried to give her opinion only if asked. I could tell when she had something to say but respected me and then privately we would have a chat. 

She had an unreal work ethic and was a tireless mother. For mother's day we got her a license plate frame that said "supermom"

Her updated license plate frame should have been supergrandma. Saying she loved her grandkids is a vast understatement. Held all five of them on their birthdays. Hugs, notes, books, phone calls, face timing, watching games. I know you won't forget them Nicole, Trejan Quinn, Paige and Kiara. We have plenty of pictures and memories.

We only heard stories about the 1965 Dodge Dart. A good solid car but the fleet car for LA water and Power where she worked. She didn't buy the 1965 Mustang because her skiis wouldn't fit in the trunk. Not the price but the trunk was too small. She loved that Dart but the other cars in Bend would break down.

She couldn't sing on key. She loved music and singing out loud to music but she could not carry a tune. I inherited this unfortunate trait.

Mom lived her life on her terms. She tried to take control over what she could control. After 14 years of skiing with four kids she had enough. Lost gloves, broken goggles, boots that were too tight or too loose, getting fully dressed and ready to go on the lift and then one had to go to the bathroom, and then another, finally she said enough. She quit. Cold turkey, never going back. She made lunch for us and that was it. She never looked back.

Mom lived life on her terms. She went back to school as a middle aged woman at COCC the community college in Bend. She started and finished with her masters from Portland State.

Mom lived life on her terms. She had some heart problems eight years ago. She lost weight, exercised, improved her health. 

Mom lived life on her terms. She put off this final surgery for months and months Laura Yukiko and I went to appointments with her. She wanted to improve her quality of life. She tired of being out of breath at her dance classes. She couldn't swim as far as she used to. Stairs were a problem. She made this final decision on her own. On her terms.   

Remember her laugh. Remember her smile. Remember her legacy, our beautiful family.

Courage-Laura/Yukiko

Hi, to introduce myself, I'm Laura Yukiko. To some of you I am Laura, to others, I'm Yukiko. (I decided to change my name when I got married.)

Today I'm going to talk about courage.

My mom lived a courageous life, she taught me that fear should never stop you. If something seems hard to me, I can hear mom saying it’s ok, she would tell me “you can do it!” Here are some examples of how brave my mom was.

It takes courage to jump into a marriage with a two day engagement period. After my parents were dating for a while in Los Angeles, dad told mom that he got a job in Philadelphia and he was moving the following week. Well, they decided they would get married and move together. So, on a Monday they made plans and on Wednesday they got married! Friends and family all called each other to spread the news.  They were packed up and on their way to a new life on the other side of the country, I am happy to say, their marriage lasted 47 years.

It takes courage to move from Los Angeles to Bend, Oregon. While living in LA mom and dad visited friends up in Oregon.  At that time Bend did not have a McDonalds....very small town. After that trip, they decided that they should live there, that way dad could ski every weekend, and not leave mom home with two small kids. I was four months old and Chet was one and a half when they moved to Bend, with no job and no place to live. WHO DOES THAT?

It takes courage to start going to college at age 47. Growing up, I remember hearing mom say that she wished she had gone to college. As her kids were leaving for college she decided, hey, I want to go too, I guess I should then! She started taking classes and graduated from Central Oregon Community College. That was a big graduation year, Nori finished high school, and I finished college. Mom and dad moved so Mom could go to Portland State. After she received her Bachelor’s degree she decided to keep on going. She ended up graduating with her master’s degree in her sixties. She joked that she went to work just so she could retire.

It takes courage to do your first triathlon at age 65. Nori and I did a couple of short triathlons, with the family cheering us on and Mom got inspired. This excitement encouraged us to buy Mom a bike so she could start training and get in shape. She didn’t want to swim in a dirty lake, so we found a pool triathlon. When mom finished the swim, the entire pool deck started clapping. We were all so proud of her.

It takes courage to get your first passport at age 69. Damon and I decided to move to China for a couple of years and mom did NOT want us to take her grandkids away from her. Mom told me, she didn’t want to go to China, but if it was really important to me then she would think about it.

All I needed to do was tell her I was lonely and it was hard to live in China so far away, I told her I missed her so much. Damon, Nicole, Trejan  and I all wanted our family to visit!  Well, Mom and Dad flew to China three months after we arrived. Mom didn’t like to travel, (Dad had even gone to Japan a few times without her).  She hated flying, but that didn’t stop her from jumping on the plane, going across the world to give her grandkids hugs and kisses. That is proof of love, and courage.


Mom lived a very courageous life, she set an example for me. Do not to be afraid to do something, if you are afraid, it is ok, just do it anyway. She lived this quote by Eleanor Roosevelt, “You must do the thing you think you can not do”.

Mom taught me to be strong and courageous.

40 Things About Mom - Noriko Nakada

In 2009 for Mother’s Day I wrote this list for Mom. I added 5 more since now I’m 40

years old.

Love and miss you, Mom.


1. She would do anything for her kids including supporting us as we move out of state or

country.

2. She is willing to change even if she hates it.

3. She loves Mexican food and would eat it every day if she could.

4. She makes a great brunch and the best breakfast potatoes.

5. She moved away to college the same day I did.

6. She looks back at places where she's lived and remembers so much good in the past.

7. She traveled out of the country for the first time in 2009 and walked on The Great

Wall of China.

8. She loves the colors beige and blue.

9. She loves to rearrange furniture so that every time I go back home things are always

the same but a little different.

10. She lives with chronic pain.

11. She is a survivor.

12. She loves being a grandmother.

13. She lost her beautiful wedding ring snorkeling in Hawaii and still thinks about it there

in the sand somewhere.

14. She drove me to LA after college to help me start my life in the big city.

15. She loves chocolate but has been willing to give it up.

16. She has a getting-ready-for-bed routine that lasts at least a hour.

17. She hates it when her kids tease her.

18. She loves to eat popcorn at night, a habit both of her daughters have inherited.

19. She is not fond of exercise but completed a triathlon.

20. She can't carry a tune.

21. She made a baby book for me when I graduated from high school to make up for

never making one for me when I was a baby.

22. She used to grind her own wheat and bake her own bread.

23. She spent endless hours in gyms, at courts and on fields watching her kids and

grandkids play soccer, baseball, football, tennis, basketball, volleyball, wrestle or run

track/cross-country.

24. She hates most Japanese food.

25. She loves a good burger and fries.

26. She reads books and promptly forgets all about them.

27. She is not afraid to apologize.

28. She gets stuck watching a lot of sports and loves to hear stories to help her care

about the players.

29. She loves to spoil her grandchildren.

30. She never drinks or smokes but she swears.

31. She has an amazing laugh.

32. She always made holidays special for us every birthday, New Year, Valentine's Day,

Fourth of July, Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas.

33. She remembers the train ride her family took from Ohio to California when she was a

little girl.

34. She has lived in Cincinnati, Los Angeles, Philadelphia, Alta, Bend, and Portland.

35. She is proud of her family but doesn't know how proud her family is of her.

36. She is proud to be a feminist and showed me how to be a proud feminist.

37. She is always looking to be a better person mentally, physically, and spiritually.

38. She loves discussing politics, books, movies and tv shows.

39. She is a fighter: strong-willed, and brutally honest.

40. She leaves a strong impression on everyone she meets and will be with me always.

Bend Bulletin Obituary

Memorial Program and Obituary by Noriko Nakada

Kate Davis on friend Sue

Sue Nakada Eulogy -Kate Davis

It is difficult to take on the summarizing of any person’s impact on the world. To speak about Sue Nakada is to take on the complexity and wonder of a completely alive, vital, tuned-in and genuine person. So I humbly offer this little rant in the hope that Sue would find it endearing, surprising and mostly true...because Sue had opinions and I know that if she read this, we would talk about exactly what she thought about it. I also know that she would correct me about the kind things that I say about her and would remind me about how I am wrong to hold her in such high esteem. Sue never kept me in the dark about where she stood, and that seems to be true for all of us. Thankfully, where she stood was in service of love, truth, authenticity and wisdom. She was also unafraid of facing her own shadow. If she sometimes didn’t meet her own standards, she never gave up and always moved towards goodness. I can hear her arguing with me right now. So here we go....

 Sue was the grandchild hugging, tell it like is ing, feministing, questing, spiritualizing, arguing, political blaming, Cheney blaming, Leonard Cohen loving, Christmas dreaming, Bend longing, mothering, sistering, wifeing, counseling, recovering, crying, facebooking, Ipad using, laughing, TV watching, book reading, movie loving, critiquing, correcting, amending, wryly observing Sue.

 Sue was the parent educator, the therapist, the wisest friend at work, the never hold back truth teller, the good advice giver, the teacher, the one whose old clients would approach her in the store and tell her how much she helped them, the one who would sit in team meetings and sigh heavily and come out with a sharp observation, the one who didn’t shy away from telling her coworkers what they needed fix about their love lives and who was loyal to her boss because she would never forget how Julie picked her up to bring her to work after a surgery.

 She was the triathloning, aerobicizing, healthy eating, friend-loving, wise observation sharing, cookie loving, chocolate hounding, mood swinging, keeping it real-ing, guacamole and hamburger craving, treat making, snuggling, problem solving, hold you in her arms while you are weeping, comforting you in your time of loss and telling you to stop doing what you’re doing because it’s crazy...Sue.

 She was the soccer watching, Nutcrackering, babysitting, basketball cheering, China walking, California dreaming, picture showing, video sharing, teller of grandchild tales. Paige loving, Trejan loving, Quinn loving, Kiara loving, Nicole loving. Proud mama, longing mama, beloved mama to Mitch, Chet, Nori, Yukiko .... and mom in law to Holly, David, Damon and Brenda. Loving the family right alongside John the whole time. Sue.

 In closing, the Sue I knew was someone who had already lived 62 years. The person I met was the culmination of her childhood, her youth, her early life and work, her long marriage, her deep love for Bend and her beloved friends in Bend, the raising of her children, her schooling , becoming a grandmother, still deepening her process of self-reflection....everyone in this room in some way made up the wonder that was Sue Nakada. I am grateful that I am part of this great group of family and friends and I can’t imagine how happy she would be to see us all together in one room, though of course she would not be happy that any of us are sad on her account. So I guess today is a day where I get the last word. We love you Sue and that is that.

Psalm 100 Read by Sue's Grandkids

Psalm 100

Paige
Make a joyful noise to the LORD, all the earth!
Serve the LORD with gladness!

Quinn
Come into his presence with singing!
Know that the LORD, he is God!

Trejan
Enter his gates with thanksgiving, and his courts with praise!
Give thanks to him; bless his name!

Nicole
For the LORD is good; his steadfast love endures forever, and his faithfulness to all generations.

Kiara (Nicole)
Psalm 100

Friday, June 20, 2014

Thank You - Photo Slideshow Link

Thank you so much to the wonderful friends and family who came to the memorial service for Sue Nakada. It was lovely to see so many old friends, and to see how many people loved Mom.

If you are interested, this is a link to the photo slide show we played at the memorial service. I'm sorry, there is no music or video.

In Memory of Sue Nakada-photo slideshow


Tuesday, June 17, 2014

1:00 Saturday June 21

Suggested dress attire-

Khakis or slacks and dress shirt (no tie needed)
Casual skirt or nice pants and blouse

You do not need to dress up, in Portland we are casual!

Looking forward to seeing you.

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

1:00pm Saturday June 21st, 2014

Memorial Service for Sue Nakada

Saturday June 21st, 2014 1:00pm

Summerplace Ballroom
2020 NE 150th Ave
Portland, Oregon 97230

In lieu of flowers, memorial contributions may be made to Mercy Corps.


Monday, June 9, 2014

6/9

All four kids and dad agreed mom wouldn't want any other measures taken. They removed breathing tube this afternoon and mom died in peace with no pain.  We know she loved us and we loved her.

I will post again as soon we decide details for a service.


6/9

As of today, these are the complications:

Mom's heart is not functioning without medicine to keep her out of A-Fib, so her heart needs help.

They needed to paralyze her to allow the ventilator machine to do 100 % of the breathing; her lungs are not capable of working.

She can not regulate her body temperature, fever is fluctuating back and forth.

Fluid entering her body is not equal to the amount exiting, however at this point she is not strong enough for dialysis.

Today our family is making decisions about how many different things our Mom would want the doctors to do to keep her alive. She was hoping to be home one week ago from today. Her sister who came to help her adjust to being home is leaving and mom didn't get a chance to say hi.

We know that our Mom would want to go home from the hospital with confidence she would be better than before surgery. She has taught us how to be courageous and we hear her voice helping us make this decision.

Sunday, June 8, 2014

6/8

Mom keeps fighting the machines. She is so independent! Friends and family all know that mom doesn't let things just happen, she tries her best to do something about situations, if she can.

The lung doctor and the heart doctor are working together, we feel really good about the care the doctors and nurses are giving her.

There have been two things they did this morning, one for the heart and one for the lungs.

Since surgery moms heart has been in and out of atrial fibrillation (A-Fib) so they did a procedure to reset it. The hope is that it will result in her allowing the pacemaker do the work of the heart for a steady heartbeat. This would allow her to stop going into A-Fib.

In order for the ventilator to work properly they needed to do some different things to allow it to move 100% of the oxygen through her lungs.

There is still hope. We are trying to be as optimistic as possible.

Saturday, June 7, 2014

6/7

I started this blog so people can go directly to this link for updates instead of facebook. It seems like it will still be awhile before Mom is discharged.

I decided to try this method of getting information to her friends and family. If you would like to see photos and/or a funny video of Mom, scroll to the earliest posts.

Leave comments if you would like, facebook can be confusing, so this should help if you aren't use to using facebook.

-Kiko

6/7

The night seemed uneventful. 

Mom's oxygen levels are lower today and the respirator levels are higher. They are going to try to get more water off and hope that helps. Her eyes open but she's still unresponsive and struggles when she's on her right side.

Doctor says slow progress is expected.

Friday, June 6, 2014

6/6

Mom is still in critical condition, but at least moving towards stable. The antibiotics are fighting the infection. Fever is gone! 

Now when the nurses turn her she is ok. No need for respiratory therapist last night (previous night they needed to call in for help three times). 

This 24 hour period is the first time in awhile that she didn't go backwards! Moving in the right direction finally!

Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers, we read everything you write to mom. We believe she can hear us even though she doesn't respond.

Thursday, June 5, 2014

6/5

No big improvements yet, but hope is still there bc the antibiotics need time to work. Early this morning they decreased sedation a little and tried to slowly wake her up. She opened her eyes but then they had to give her more medicine to sedate her bc her blood pressure went up (which is bad). Then oxygen went down (which is bad). 

Hopefully they will be able to try again tomorrow. I'm going to spend the night at the hospital tonight. Nori flew up from LA Monday and her sisters Patti and Bobbi came today. Dad is holding up ok.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

6/4

Surgeon anticipates one more week in ICU, bc pneumonia is significant. On breathing tube and feeding tube, they are keeping her asleep /comfortable until she is strong enough to wake up, hopefully tomorrow. 

Thank you for all the support. I know that helps us all. Everyone who knows mom knows she is a fighter. That fiesty strong personality should help her through!

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

6/3

Mom needed to be intibated, they think she might have pneumonia, but they are not sure. The doctors are optimistic that she will pull through, but she continues to have a lot of serious complications.

Sunday, June 1, 2014

6/1

Some complications, unfortunately. 

Last night Mom needed to be moved back to icu because her blood pressure dropped and they need to give her blood and new meds. 

She has been presenting with low motor function recently, this morning CT showed she had a minor stroke. It was on the side of the brain that doesn't effect personality, so that is good. 

She should recover but will take a painfully long time. We should see progress but it will be slow. Months, maybe year/years. 

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. Also, I read all the comments on Facebook and mom feels encouraged and supported by you.